Writing that first novel is as much “proof of concept” as telling a story or making a piece of art. There’s a point, usually about halfway through, where you ask yourself, “Am I really cut out for this?” Wrote a blog piece about this today that Hidden Gems was kind enough to publish about the process. Long-ish story short: You are if you want to be.
The thing about stupid fears like this — as opposed to fears such as “Stay away from the grizzly bear”; that’s good fear — is that they seem true when they whisper things from the shadows. They tend to lose power, however, when you drag them screaming into the daylight. It doesn’t matter who’s doing the screaming — you or the fear; “daylight” is the operative word here. So, let’s drag…
Gathering reviews is just one element of the multi-headed monster that is marketing. I’ve gotten where I (think) I can write books passably well, but marketing myself is a different animal. Some people are just born to shout things from the rooftops, and there are others of us who just wish the rooftop shouters would just keep it down — we don’t want to compete with them and we’ve got writing to do, dammit!
I’ve gone through all the self-doubt, second-guessing and “what does it all mean” phases that I expected to while writing, but recently I ran into a wall I didn’t see coming while getting this book of short short stories ready for the world.
There was a very real, very strong internal resistance I found myself facing that was completely unexpected.